Wednesday, July 26th, 2017
I could not have asked for a better day to get in a long run then today! It was overcast and windy. My favorite. I hate doing long runs in the sun and heat. The goal 8 miles today, but only made it 7.5. You won’t hear me complaining. I was killing through the first 4 miles and then I started to fatigue. It makes perfect sense since those first 3.5 miles are full of steep hills that seem to only go uphill! My running took on a new pattern after 4 miles. I would seem to find a great groove for 1/2 a mile then struggle for the next 1/4 of mile. My hamstrings were really cramping up and I could feel the soreness behind my knees. When I hit 7.5 and I looked at the path ahead of me, it as all hills. Nope, not going to do it. I was done. I absolutely need new shoes.
It ended up being my fastest time for this distance. This was the best part of my day.
Mental and Hormone Pillar:
I needed that run today. Not only was it in the back of my brain as a scheduled activity, but today was the last day of vacation. We had spent 11 glorious days at the lake and it was time to head home. It wasn’t just that we had to head home, but school is starting right around the corner for me. We have one more trip to the lake planned, but that means I have to head into school early and get my classroom set up before we leave again. I really don’t want to think about it. Don’t get me wrong. I absolutely love my job as an educator, but I love vacation too!
For me running is not about a race or speed. It is about the repetitive motion of pounding the pavement so my brain can think. When I run, I love letting my brain wander to think all the creative thoughts and make all the fun plans. Sometimes I spend so much time planning and organizing that I don’t get a chance to let my brain just think. Running allows me time and space to do this. I have come up with some of my best ideas during a run.
Running also lets me connect with God in more organic different way. When on various paths and routes, I see different kinds of people, homes, and nature. Sometimes different thoughts just strike me and I feel the urge to pray. I have prayed for friends, family, my students, random people I see while running, my children’s future spouses, our government, and of course for myself. I am often so “busy” with life that I forget to stop, connect with my Creator, and just be thankful for the life He has given to me.
Today’s run let me process and be thankful for all my family has. We are fortunate to have family that has a lake house where we can get away. This summer was filled with firsts, repeats, and so many moments where we made lasting memories. I needed to remember this and be thankful because “Post-Vacation Depression” (PVD) was setting in.
I am a horrible mother. Not really, but I did totally lose it.
Mentally, I lost it after the run. My post run high was cut short by fighting kids, a stressed out husband, and the fact that we had to clean the house before we left. When I say clean, I mean Marriott clean. In hind site, the kids did an amazing job. They cleaned bathrooms, changed sheets, made beds, vacuumed, and did general clean up. However, we all had PVD so tensions were high. Let’s just say I lost it. There could have been screaming, finger pointing, and foul language directed at my kids.
What? You thought I was perfect?
Snort. Try again.
I would like to take this public forum to issue a “kind of” apology to my children. I should not have lost it like a lunatic. You did an amazing job helping “reset” the house in Marriott fashion for the next set of family. Please be less annoying next time.
Here’s the deal, we split up into two different cars, put in our headphones and drove home. We all needed some space from each other – read everyone needed space from me.
Meh – I ate okay. Food was grabbing things here and there for me, except for an early dinner. We went out to eat and I chose this delicious grilled salmon salad. I always ask for my dressing on the side, and I barely touch it. I did make sure to fuel up after my run appropriately, and all my snacks were full of great nutritional value. Well, until I got a chalupa at Taco Bell. Yep. I did it. I wasted my money and stomach on a terrible piece of fake food. Please don’t judge me. I was eating my feelings. Still trying to work on that.
Brain and Spine Pillar:
Still clenching and grinding my teeth. Hmmmm . . wonder why. I cannot wait to get to the chiropractor. My hips, knees, and ankles are totally jammed up. I haven’t been there in a month and all the running, skiing, and basic shenanigans has me all messed up.